How I Went from Crappy Backstory to Living my Best Life Ever!

WARNING you are about to read something so powerful it's hard to even fathom! I don't think about the past much because if I don't mind it don't matter, and I avoid creating more of the same. But I want to share a small part of my backstory without giving it too much energy so that I can hopefully teach and encourage others and aid in my own journey as well. May you see a gem in my story that encourages you, and points you to the way.

Around this time last year I found myself newly released from jail because I had hit back an abuser who I had allowed to control and destroy my life for a decade. I had allowed domestic violence to rule and ruin my life. I was on papers where I couldn't see my kids, was rendered homeless, carless, couldn't get opportunities, couldn't leave the state, had beaucoup of legal, financial troubles on top of troubles, was on the verge of a mental hospital, and suicidal and truly I had been dying inside for years. I had literally reached a point where I was either going to kill or be killed. My situation was evaluated by professionals as highest on the lethality scale meaning most likely to be murdered! To say I had reached rock bottom wouldn't come close!

Thankfully I was mandated to take a domestic violence class, weekly for 6 months in order to have my charge dismissed and not on my record. I felt hopeful at this umpteenth 2nd chance but was still in the thick of my problems. On the bright side, I bonded with so many women who were going thru similar. I learned so much and became more empowered to break that cycle. The counselor gave us this blanket in the class which is ironic because how I wanted to sore and felt I was tethered in hell!!

It was I who had to decide that I would no longer allow myself to be treated less than I deserve for NO excuse in the world! It was I who had to decide that I was NOT a victim but was instead the creator of my own destiny! It was I who had to say enough is enough and turn from everything not beneficial to my elevation and health! It was I who had to finally love myself over any ideals in my mind!

I had to seek out those shadows of the subconscious such as my fear of abandonment...not wanting to abandon my kids who I was always told would be taken from me...or not wanting my kids to grow up without their father and mother in the home..all surrounding issues with my own parental absence at times. I had to forgive others. I had to forgive myself. When thoughts of the past creep in, I wipe my hand across my brow and picture swiping them away like one would do an undesirable social media post. I fasted from meat, weed, alcohol, sex, negative music, news, social media, movies, gave up many of my things, even got over all my old baby and family photos being destroyed...the only things that I had held on to throughout years of foster care etc...began to free myself of attachments..the utmost hardest being my children who I had birthed at home, breastfed, homeschooled etc for so many years...

I committed myself to first putting the oxygen mask on myself. I committed myself to healing and becoming whole. I committed to understanding that I was of the Divine, complete and perfectly made to be a winner. I committed to dying to my old self so I could be reborn. I committed to raising my frequency and not needing things outside of me. I committed to taking control over my mind, body, subconscious, and emotional bodies so that I could connect with my soul.

To say it took hard work undoing a decade of bad decisions would be an understatement! Before long I looked around and that relationship had finally fallen away, along with those burdens I mentioned earlier. I still get tested when it comes to getting to be with my kids...But I press on knowing they came thru me but are their own souls and in God's hands....and that after years of being a stay-at-home mom now is the time to focus on self! I surrendered it all till I had nothing left but my imagination and a mustard seed of hope. Even when it was ugly around me I would picture swimming in the ocean and chilling under palm trees with my toes in the sand. I would picture traveling the world etc. I would make myself feel emotions like these experiences were happening now. I still do this exercise daily. I still get tested and work to free myself from my binds.

Flash forward to the other day, I took this picture flying  on my way from Phoenix (so symbolic) with this same blanket from that domestic violence class and all those horrors. I laughed at the irony and confirmation that what I imagined about traveling etc is no longer just in my imagination but is happening NOW! I now get to travel around the world for FREE! Ya'll don't hear me tho!! I have an opportunity that's so awesome people are shaking heads like what in the world how she do that?!?! It's not because I'm lucky or waited on anyone to save me but because I created this with my mental powers and commitment to changing/saving myself and creating my best life yet! It's because I committed myself to being the best even when I was feeling at my worst!

You can support my amazing journey, as I shine my light in service of self and others! I will tell you all about how I started living my best life traveling all around the world and how you can live out your wildest imagination too! Please give a love offering to my paypal https://www.paypal.me/RoniPsychic

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I have so much in the works that will help others as I get to travel the world such as books, music, art, photography, modeling, travel writing and videos, service projects, conferences, lectures, motivational speaking, apps, and even starting another private school and other education programs (yes I started, owned, and operated a private school for 3 years). I have 2 Master degrees- Education Instructional Design and Entertainment Business that will be put to good use! If you are looking for a movement to invest in I am that I am! I need a passport, luggage and some other things to help connect the dots. Thanks to all who have given already and to those who will give. You are appreciated!